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I bet you're wondering how I knew.
what you're plans to make me blue.
With some other guy you knew before.
Between the two of us, you know I love you more.

I know a man ain't supposed to cry.
But these tears I can't hold inside.
Losin' you would end my life you see.
'Cause you mean that much to me.

Ok now stop.

Hi people. and oh.. What a year!
really faced a lot of shit this year.
soo messed up..

1) club fight

2) theft charge

3) lost my job

4) lost my bloody laptop!

5) almost went bankrupt

but i'm o.k now.
and after all the things that happened..
fad is actually right.. i should say Alhamdullilah.

and yea! Alhamdullilah. things happened because of me.

my own wrongdoings. and i just have to face it. its a test given to me.
and i just came to realise it early today. i must take it as a test instead of being so depressed and stuff.. "ala..when bad things happen to good people issit?" , that's what fad said.

so i take it that god is testing me and i'm a good guy.

so alhamdullilah i'm still able to cope with my other stuffs..
so many things happenin in my life.. i realise that i'm actually quite strong. being able to take all these and still not give up. well, i almost did. but i didnt!

so thank you god. but maybe after all these..from now onwards, you might wanna test me with the not so tough ones ok?

so now what imma gonna do next is study hard for my exams.

stop with the laptop shit.. i'm gonna do last what i'm gonna do..

if i still cant get it.. argh.. then i'll just get a new one!
and no more nonsense. i cant promise but i'm tryinna change.
i really do. i'm feeling better now. after today...
just have to thank some really good friends who are still with me..
we forever BRADER lah! blood! :)

but there's still one more thing..
i'm trying to forget..
and yea.. maybe its for my own good too.
i like someone.. but what to do?
always trying your best..
cant do anything anymore..
just hope that she'll be fine and she's happy with whatever she's doin.
i'll just see you when i see you.

so yeah, no more crying over spilt milk..
time to get the milk back into the cup.
but this time.. its gonna be a new cup.

a new me!

1 more week of school.
then perf. arts challge 09.
then comes my IA..
then i'm all done with ITE.

gogo!

Ahsui