:'(

Why do i feel so terrible right now?
I'm feeling regretful.
Yes, i was too clingy.
And its because i am too afraid to lose you.
Please forgive me.
Give me a chance..
Please, give me that chance which i never had..
I promise it will work this time...

All I can do now is say the words that I couldn't say then..
I love you, I love you, I love you.
A million times I love you and a million times I'm sorry. 
Sorry that I couldn't say those words to you when it would have made a difference.
Sorry that I didn't give you the parts of me that you deserved.
I still love you and I desperately hope you're happy. 
It kills me that you can't be happy with me. 
Please forgive me baby, for I'm afraid I can never forgive myself.

I'm not naturally an angry person.
you know that from when you first met me. 
I have so many bad memories, so many moments that I hold myself in
because they seem to be all that is left of me.
How foolish of me to have brought all my past into a relationship,
thinking that past problems won't melt over into present dilemmas.
I've been living a lie.
I know that the blame is mostly mine. Your friends are your family, 
much like my mother is my family. 
I defend the things she says and does out of love and I know you
do much of the same for them.

I'm sorry for not taking the time to be patient with you, to sit and
listen and understand the way you feel. I know that I will never know the
things they share with you and you share with them and therefore your 
relationship with them is of a different importance than yours and mine.

just wish you to know that my selfish will has broken, 
my barriers have fallen, and my love for you has come into full view.
I never want to have us turn and go away. We might feel better if we stay.

Yo te voy amar...