Love

I'm missing her.
I really miss her so much. I miss talking to her on the phone.Why did she leave me just like this? I missed her coz of the things that we used to do. If only she knew how i'm feeling right now. She knew how much it hurts to be broken and yet she's still hurting me. Why did she do this to me? She's the only one i got. Now i got nothing else. I understand her situation fully. But, i'm sure she knows how wrong it is just to leave me like this. Despite all the things she did to me, i still love her. I'm even willing to give my life for her happiness even if i dont get anything in return. I love her. I cant forget the things that we used to do together. Does she know all these? I'm crying now. Does she know all these? I'm trying to move on but i just cant. Its too hard for me. She tells me to move on just to get what she wants. Well, i am giving her what she wants. She knows she will give it all to him, but i'm sure she's worried if he can do the same to her or not. Maybe, the guy is just taking another vacation on her. I dont know. I just dont want her to be hurt again. The answers are already so clear to her yet she still wants him so bad. Everytime i trigger her with questions, she replies "idk". She's confused. She's really blind right now. And i cant believe she changed alot. This is not her. I know she still love me. That's why she ran away from me for about nearly 1 month. And i can feel it. May god guide her to the right path. Insya'allah. If only she knew what i'm going through right now. I'm so sad. So here's a message to all you lads out there... God reminds us to be thankful and cherish with what you have been given that will last long instead of searching for something to fulfil your satisfaction which will lead you to destruction. Always remember, Life's a test. Pray and use alot thinking.